Ngl, I was thinking (once more) about suicide but I can't. Between being sick, studying and working, I have no time 4 myself. My previous (4-5) day-off was to be with friends (don't wanna forget them and vice versa).

Even if I don't celebreate my bday, I made a promise with myself: 1. Go to therapy 2. Value me more

I forget that the student/professional/family/social/personal life are difficult to balance/handle (not including the romantic life i'm still craving)

And I (still) have a million ideas (and changes) to code... So sorry 4 being so inactive (but for my perspective, nobody cares about me :), I don't have so much time rn

Is not an easy task to keep myself alive, carrying a smile 24/7, being gentle (even if the people is rude), but... It is what it is.

~ CheckPoint(true)